What now?

I don't know why this keeps happening.

Is it a lesson I need to learn,

Or a blight, a shadow, glued to my feet?

Sabotaging my every turn?

Is it the result of my unfed faith?

Or my own internal failures?

Do I need to learn and grow beyond my trauma,

Or am I repeating bad behaviors?

Do I need to trod a new path entirely?

One that's scary and unknown?

One with its own vices and its troubles

But with the freedom to stand on my own?

I don't understand how this keeps happening,

And I don't know what happens next.